傻瓜

"I feel threatened by the thought of your happiness in my hands. Un-confident due to my uncertaincy. Despite having to know how I really feel."

I feel like bullcrap. I really don't know what to say. How did it come to this stage? I really don't know myself. But somehow, I feel like I've caused it and all these just boils down to one reason... me. I feel sorry. Sigh. Daddy might be right. I should just pick up boxing. Now I feel that boxing allows one to release out what their feeling despite their mood. Be it happy, sad or angry. But Prem said I would get myself killed. Given my mood, if I get killed now, it might prolly relieve me of my guilt, problems and frustrations. I really look forward to Saturday. A day that I might finally be able to relax and let go. Where my beloveds will be there and everything would seem right. Yea.

"想念又能说什么能做什么"